Things I can't tell my mother....

This is a well I don't know what it is but I wrote it to my mother a few months ago. I never gave it to her. It was too embarrassing; at first, when I wrote it. Now, I'm ready and I plan on handwriting it and giving it to her in a few hours. 
My actual note said:

Things I can't tell my mother... because they are just too far embarrassing and depressing at the moment.

If tomorrow I found you gone forever, I would cry.
If tomorrow you, who has always given me her all were gone,
I'd want to quit.
If tomorrow you, who loved me beyond reasoning were gone,
I'd want to go after you.
If tomorrow I could not hug you,
I'd feel empty.
If tomorrow I could not hear your laugh
I'd lose my sense of humor.
If tomorrow I did not have the chance to say I love you,
I'd be confused as to how to love once more.
You, the one who gives her all, are my inspiration.
You, the one who loves me beyond reasoning, are the one who let's me know on love and kindness.
You are the one who stables my world.
If it weren't for you I'd be lost in the world.
So,
thank you
a million times over and over
for everything, everything you've ever done for me
from cleaning my room when I told you not to step foot in there,
for doing my laundry once in a while,
for preparing meals for me,
for taking care of me,
for sharing advice with me
for every stupid little thing you've ever done for me.
Thank you.
I love you very very very much.